Monday, January 31, 2005
Am I miserable?
I have been feeling miserable and depressed since the day she told me she no longer cared for me - 16 days ago.
And when her affair was discovered, I went into a deeper depression and the torture was unimaginable.
And then she told me that she never loved me - not even during the last 17 years - the marriage was an escape for her - I was a saviour that appeared to bring her away from her family. And this was the greatest hurt that she has inflicted on me.
It has been a week since she told me that and I am still surviving.
The pain is still there. But now, when I looked at the postive aspect, life is not too bad after all.
I still have the three kids. I still have a job that keep the family going. I still drive a great car. I still buy the things I want and do the things I want. And now, I started to appreciate more the little things in my life - like the monring walk, the sending of the children to school, the conversations with the children, the playing with the little one, the reading of my books that has collected dust over the years, the blogging but most of all the sense of existence.
And the other day, there was an article about the poor in Singapore. There was this Malay women. Her husband left her, left nothing for her - not even the furniture in the house and she has 5 children to take care. One has kidney disease and another has heart problem. And she made barely $1000 a month to keep the five children going.
When I compare my plight to hers - mine seem like a non-issue. Yes, my wife left me - and that is about all. I have a five-figure salary - a house, a nice car, 3 wonderful and healthy children, a maid and a dog to feed.
Time to move on. Treasure what you have.
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3 comments:
sometimes it's really the simple things in life that matter :)We get so caught up with our busy lives that we don't stop to reflect, and find joy in the simplest things. and I'm so glad you finally see them. I'm sure your kids are beautiful. do like what you've said. Give them all your love and time. and I'm sure they'll do the same. and stay strong. You're really very blessed in other ways.
wanderer
Sometimes it's the simple things in life that matter most. We get so caught up with our busy lives that we miss these simplest joys. I'm glad you are starting to see them now. Like what you've said, give all your time and love to your three beautiful daughters. I'm sure they'll do the same too. Stay strong for them and for yourself. and you're really blessed in other ways. :) And someday...life will really get better.
wanderer
thanks wanderer,
life has gotten better by the day.
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