Separated

Yesterday was the day. We were officially separated. She had packed her stuff in the morning and after sending the kids to school in the morning, she would leave the house at the same time. I woke up a the usual time and saw her drove the kids away. I felt nothing. And I took my usual morning walk - only this time - it was a longer walk as I took almost an hour to complete. I did not hear from her anymore and I do not expect to hear from her. But somehow in the afternoon, she SMSed me, asking if she could drop by for dinner. Of course, I agreed to it. The day ended early for me and I was already home by 5.30pm. The children were all at home and as usual, the little one rushed out to hug and kiss me. I talked with the children about their day at school and get S to complete her kumon assignment. The little one was very "gluey" and once ever so often would come and hug and kiss me. And she only wanted me to be with me - like even her usual evening wash - she refused to let the maid wash her without me standing by the side. And then it was dinner time. Since that day, our life-style has changed a bit - we no longer watched TV while taking the dinner. I made sure that we sat on the dinner table to have our dinner - no more eating at the coffee table while watching TV. We finished our dinner and she was still not back yet. It was 8pm and S remarked that we needed to buy bread. I put on my Tee-shirt and the little one immediately clung onto me. I had no choice but to bring her and S to walk out to buy bread (and kaya and butter). When we opened the door she was at the door steps. Told her that I was bringing the children out to buy bread and asked her to have dinner. When we came back, she was sitting at the coffee table watching TV and having her dinner. We did not talk as I did not want to intrude into her private space. I sat at the sofa watching the TV. After dinner, she did not sit for very long and she was getting ready to go. She said goodbye to the kids. While at the door-step, I asked her if her "place" was nearby. She mumbled something to the effect: "none of your business". I pretended not to hear anything and she drove away. And then she SMSed to apologize for her "rudeness". But I felt nothing as her "rudeness" did not bother me a bit. It was a good night as I can sleep on my bed again. The bed in the study was much too hard for me - I always prefer my own bed. S again wanted to sleep with me and the little one was sitting in the middle. But I did not really sleep that well as I woke up a couple of times - to check on the little one to make sure that she was covered well by the blanket. And she actually woke up in the middle of the night - around 3am - crying very loudly. And I have to hug her and console her and sayang her before she slept again. And it was just another night for me and I have gotten to the routine of living without a wife.