The Final Reality

Today I was again hurt and there was no one around me. I logon but no one was available for chatting. Then she SMSed me again - this time she apologized for her outbursts and kept saying sorry. She said it was all a misunderstanding! She said she said all that because she was still angry with him over the incident. Then the SMS stopped. It was another half an hour before she SMS again, asking me to call her. I called her and she told me that she had went to his house - to meet up with him and his wife. And he had told his wife the truth that it was he who wanted back with her and not the other way round. And then now he wanted back with his family again. She felt cheated and she gave him two tight slap on the face in front of his wife - and to her - everything ended. She sounded very calm or could I even say a tinge of relief. She said it was all over - between her and the scoundrel (her words). And for me, it was all over as she had already decided on the legal separation. All she asked for as she said was overnight access for the three kids every friday night to saturday evening. I told her I knew that I could not get her to change her mind and similarly she could not force me to change my mind. I told her that I have not made up my mind, I have not decided if I would let go completely of her. I needed time to sort out my thoughts - of how I wanted to lead my life. For a long time we were able to talk without quarelling. And at least we agreed to disagree. I felt calm, no anger, no resentment and not even sad. But I knew it would take time for me to come to terms with this final reality.