Today I unearthed more truth. It was sunday and I woke up the children to go to the market. My eldest daughter F did not like to go to the market. When my wife was around, most of the time I went with her and sometimes S followed us to the market. F seldom wanted to go to the market and in the first place she would prefer to sleep than to go to the market with us. But it was all different now. Last week, she went to the market happily with me. And similarly, when I woke her up, she did not complain much. My two daughters and I - we went to the market. As usual, they helped with the marketing, especially the vegetables and suggestions for fishes. After marketing, we ate dim sum at the coffee shop. And I believed they enjoyed it. We all enjoyed it very much. When we reached home, it was still quite early. The little one was already running around. I read the papers while the children watched their TV. Then I SMS my wife, asking her if she would care to come back for dinner or perhaps she would like to have tea with the children. She replied that she was busy with work and suggested another day. I thought nothing of it. But it was just past 12noon when she suddenly SMS me and asked if we would like to join her for lunch. I asked the children and they agreed as they also wanted to buy some stationery and books. So, we went to meet her. She ordered lunch for herself and F, S was sulking and refused to eat. After eating we went to the bookshop to buy stationery and some assessment books for the children. And then we went home. It was close to the evening when suddenly I received a SMS from her. She wanted the children to bunk in with her every friday night and to be brought back on saturday evening. I told her that I will think about it. Then the next SMS was that she was letting me know first as she will be putting the requests in the legal letter. I took it as a threat to use legal means if I did not accede to her request. I have never stopped her from seeing the kids - although sometimes I would attempt to do so. In fact, since we last see each other on Friday, I told her that the door was always opened and she should come and see the kids as often as possible. And now, she wanted to use legal means. This was understandable. However, the SMS that followed bordered on ridicule. She accused me of interfering with her affairs and that was why a legal separation was required so that I could not interfere with her again. Then she said that I acted like a saint in front of other people but in front of her I would go crazy. Then she said sorry. But it was too late. The hurt that she inflicted on me was unimaginable. To think that we have lived together for 17 years, and how little she thought of me - that I was acting like a saint (like forgiving her, like not hating her, like not angry..). Then she said that she no longer have any feelings for me and to let her go. And then she SMS again, this time asking to see the little one immediately. I did not object to the request. In the next minute she was already at the door. I went into the room to change and decided to go out as I did not want to face her and quarrel with her. After about 1 and a half hour, I called her to see if she was still around as I wanted to talk to her. On my way back, she kept SMS me, telling me that she was tired and asking me where I went. And even suggesting that I went to see that family and was plotting and conspiring against her! What a thought! After what I have gone through for the past months, the amount of pain I have suffered, in her eyes, I was someone who was conspiring against her behind her back. Then I reached home and we talked in the car. I asked her what she meant when she said I interfered with her affair. She said that last friday, I interfered with her affair. She wanted to talk to her lover alone and I was there interfering in her affair. What a thought that was! I was suppose to meet her, her lover called as he wanted to tell her the truth, to tell her that he was going back to his family in my presence - so that I can stop her from killing herself. And she thought that I was interfering with her affair. Yes, right, I was there so that she cannot threatened him with death again - she was still sore about this. I have prevented her from being with her lover again. And yes, I was interfering with her AFFAIR. She failed to see that that man was returning to his family because he cannot afford to lose his family - his family was more important than her. Then she left. And the truth was that I meant very little to her.