Not knowing what to do, I went to sleep early. It would be much easier for time to pass. It was just before 10pm and she SMSed, asking if "everything is ok". What a question? How can I be OK? I wished at that moment to tell her to mind her own business but I did nothing. I was beginning to feel a tinge of anger - not for abandoning me - but for showing me such concern. Am I OK? What a gross understatement. She probably never had an inkling of what I was going through - the lost of her, the torment of betrayal and more the feeling of being lost and unwanted - my whole confidence about me and my life was badly shaken. And I was trying very hard to put the pieces back together again. I did not answer her and went to sleep instead. I fell asleep fairly quickly. Once a while in the night I would wake up to check on the little one - and I would then realize that she was not around. I was awakened by the beep of a SMS. It was a "Good morning" from S - my lovely daughter. I replied her and told her I missed her. Then she SMS me a "Good morning" as well. I paused for a while, not knowing whether to reply to her. And I thought it would be harmless to return her greetings. Then she started to make funny requests - like asking me to change my mobile number just as she had changed hers. I asked her if it was necessary to change my mobile and she said yes. I did not argue with her and told her that I would think about it. But I was thinking: "She wanted to change her mobile number because she wanted to break-off completely with her lover. As for me, why should I change my number?. And moreover, I understand that her lover had refused to change his number anyway and why me?" I went for my morning walk and she continued to SMS me - keeping me occupied while I walked. Then S SMSed me that she was having her breakfast. And I replied that there was a new stall at the coffee shop near our house. Then S started to SMS and asked me what was sold at the stall. I told her nevermind since she was already having breakfast. And out of the blue, she SMSed - asking me not to disturb my daughter S with SMS as she was having breakfast. The tone was rude and I did not like it. I meant, they SMSed me - S and her - while I was sleeping - and she was saying that I was disturbing S with SMS? I told her that it was S who SMS me then she said I should stop SMS for a while then. I stopped the SMS but I felt rather sorry for myself. She is my daughter and I have every right to communicate with her. When she was staying with me, I always encourage her to communicate with her mommy, never once did I stop and restrict her. And now, just a few exchanges of SMS and she was saying that I was disturbing my daughter! And how about her? She was disturbing me with SMS all these while and I still entertain her. I was thinking to myself, maybe I should stop communicating with her - SMS and all. It was going to be a long day. I looked at the sky and the dark clouds were gathering in the corner of the sky - dark forbodings of the rain to come. And I made my way home.