It was a usual morning. I sent the kids to school early in the morning. However, I did not know why - as it never happened - when I was driving on the way home after sending the kids to school, my emotions got the better of me for no reason. Suddenly I felt so lost and missed her so much. And the years that we had flashed through my brain - I was lost completely. I realized then the days ahead will be long and difficult. Coming to terms with this separation was much more difficult than I had imagined. It was already the third week of separation and yet, this morning for no reason, I just could not control myself - images of her kept coming to me. Then I told myself that I have to be strong - to be rational, to keep my emotions in check - if I really wanted to get her back. I must make her feel loved, make her feel comforted and yet should not pressure her nor impose upon her. I reached home and went for my walk. It was just after 7am and I SMSed her a "Good Morning". There was no reply - even after I have completed my walk 30 minutes later and even after I have reached home. I have to start the new day. The little one was awake and as usual the sight of her was enough to make me happy and start the day with renewed vigour. I checked my email and noticed that my appointment with a professional Marriage Counsellor was confirmed. It would cost about $300 for a 45 minutes of telephone counselling but all I was thinking was how to get help to put my marriage back on track. Money is really secondary. I felt that I must still try to save the marriage at all cost - if not for my sake, then for the children.