She came back for dinner. As usual she did not take any rice - just the vegetables and the chicken and the soup. The little one was at her mischievious best again - needed to give her a bowl with some rice to feed herself - otherwise she would climb up the dining table and create a mess. We did not speak much. And after dinner, she wanted to coach the second daughter S on her work. S was not cooperative and she was fuming mad. She asked if she could discipline S. I did not answer her. The little one was very sticky to her today - holding on to her - not wanting to let her go - as if she knew that mommy's presence was only temporary. And when at last she had to go, the little one was wailing out loud. The maid wanted to pacify her but she refused. Her mommy was gone and she was still crying. After a while, knowing that mommy was gone, she rushed towards me and wanted me to carry her and pacify her. I hugged her and carried her around and very quickly she was smiling again. I asked the maid to clean her up and make her some milk. Then she SMSed me, telling me that she was sorry for upsetting the kids. I told her it was OK. Then she asked if I was angry? Angry for what? I asked her. She thought I might be angry with her for upsetting the kids. I told her no that I was not angry and I won't be angry so easily. And that I understand her difficulties as well as she is still missing the kids. A day had passed and I was glad that I remained sane.