Valentine's Day

Today is Valentine's Day. As I was driving the kids to school today, F was telling me about "their" Valentine's day celebration at school. And I just jokingly asked the kids if they have anything for me. And S, so naively innocent remarked that Mommy would have something for me. Sigh. Since the last SMS from her yesterday at 14:00 hrs she had not contacted me at all. I sent her a couple of SMS but no response at all. And throughout the night when a SMS came in, I would rush to check my phone and each time I would be dissapointed. And today is Valentine's Day and I still can remember vividly the first valentine that we spent together - 17 years ago - the best I had Sigh. Right now there is nothing I can do other than to wait. Plan A - that is to encourage her to end the affair is out - she does not even want to talk to me. So it will be Plan B - that is to avoid all contacts with her until the time when she end her affair. And how long shall I wait? 1 month, 3 months or 6 months? Even a day of waiting, of not hearing from her is so tortuous - let alone months? How can I possibly pass the days with such anguish for the months ahead. And then I thought about her that night. The pain she must have felt. I promised to protect her and take care of her forever and now I am powerless to do anything about the situation. My only wish now is for her to stand up again and be happy.